i am feeling it too,sinse i also lost my mother to cancer in 2000,tammy i know how it feels.no one can mend the pain of losing a loved one to such an unforgiving disease. only love and time can mend a broken heart. with the lords help you will one day laugh again and great memories of your father will flow through your veins right to your heart.god bless you and your wonderful family. manny and val baker city,or